Monday

Bloody Monday.

I never feel like going to uni after a night of raiding. It's not even that I go to bed late, or can't wake up, I just really really really don't feel like leaving the house.
I guess after being confined to a place you feel comfortable in for 3 and a half days, it just takes an extra big step to get moving again, usually takes me until Thursday to reach the state when I just get up and go without too much trouble, but then Friday is the weekend already, I don't have uni, and the loop continues.
I feel like I have to defend myself a lot, defend my decision in front of others. As if they were in a place to judge me, most of them aren't, I should be my own judge, but life ain't that simple is it.

It's funny, I seem to have gotten in a pattern where I post on here while I'm in class. It might seem silly, I mean I could be doing the Homework we get for next week, but that's the problem. I have to research so much for a program it's not worth me doing that in class. I need to be in my room, on my own (with the help of my brother who knows thousand times more than me).

I don't know how this is going to work out. I mean I am staying positive, trying, probably not 100%, maybe even 80%, but compared to how much I had to do, 80% seems like a lot at this moment. And then of course you can say, "but you're doing this for a better future, for you and your significant other". Yes, yes I am, but why should I give 100% when he isn't either :P

I once read somewhere for a relationship to work, you should never expect your SO to give 50% while you give 50%. All ways assume that you give 60% and they give 40%, and that's okay. But the problem is when you don't both think the same, because the more you give, the less the other gives. You BOTH have to have the mindset to give 60%. There's no harm in having 120% :P

And that's it for now. Class ends in 30 minutes, ill probably spend them browsing 9gag, facebook and checking for new FMLs. Cause why do work when you can do more at home.

Actually I'm gonna see if I can get my database program to work.

Bai for now
Moo